From the second I found out I was pregnant I wanted to be able to breastfeed my baby. With Jordon I wanted to so badly, I gave it a good try but it was so hard on both me and Jordon. When I had Austin I didn't even try since it was so hard with Jordon I was to afraid to even go back there. Feedings every two hours up every two hours at night being stuck in a car with a screaming baby while my milk would come in and completely soak my shirt. This was something I was not about to relive. When I got pregnant with Katie there was no doubt in my mind that I was going to at least give it a good try. A few hours after she was born we tried and to my surprise she latched right on and new exactly what she was doing. I called my mom right away and said she latched on like a champ! I was so excited! I had been fearing her not wanting to nurse for so long and within min I felt a sense of peace that this would all work out and that I'd be able to nurse her successfully. After coming home nursing became a huge demand, nursing every two to three hours on the dot day and night. I was determined not to use a bottle. It was I who feed her at every meal. The fact that I feed her and nourished her and got her to the whopping 18 pounds she was before starting solid foods is amazing to me. Nursing came so easy for the both of us there were never any issues. At first I was so nervous to feed her out in public or were any one could see me. A few months later and it was about feeding my child verse's what any one else thought. We where given these parts to feed and nourish our child which I think allot of people have forgotten. So when people gave me the look I just gave it right back. I'm so happy I decided to nurse and I'm so thankful for all the times we had together alone during feedings. Like when Katie would look up at me with the biggest happiest smile, or when she'd always have to hold my hand while she nursed. what an amazing experience this has been. Katie is down to about one feeding a night a few weeks back she just was not at all interested and since she eats 3 meals a day plus snacks and cow milk she's just not hungry. This was so hard for me to know that its coming to an end. All those sweet moments we had during our alone times I will definitely miss. It makes me sad to know that she does not need me to nourish her in that way anymore. I do know that she still needs me just as much as she did and I know it's the time to create sweet moments with just the two of us in others ways. I am so proud of my self for setting my year long goal and completing it successfully! YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I am so glad you posted a picture and story about nursing your precious lil' Katie. I hope it inspires others to set goals like this and stick with it like you did. Breastfeeding is so good for babies and is, like you said, a wonderful bonding time with your baby. I am so proud of you for making it to a year! :o)
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