I'm going crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its been one of those crazy days that just makes me want to curl up in a ball on the couch and not move. All day its been non stop crying and fighting and mess making. Going on 4 days now Katie seems to cry all the time and I mean all the time. All she does it want me to hold her and even them she cries. All I can think is that she is teething. Today was supposed to be my clean all day do all the laundry day so today Starts out ok Until mid afternoon. The boys seems to fight over everything. I'm constantly yelling boys stop, don't hit, kick, spit. Austin don't kick your brother in his head. Jordon stop pushing your brother. Austin why do you keep taking things that are not yours like ricks $100.00 mp3 player that he thinks is a camera. The boys seems to be on a growth spurt or else there just Bord but there eating all the time. There always in the kitchen one mess after another. Mid afternoon I decide to clean up my room and hang my shelves that have been one my floor for weeks. I can't get them straight the boards I bought where so cheap they won't hold my albums. now I have all my scrap stuff all over my room albums every where holes in the wall and no place to put anything. Katie decides right then to start a crying fit that is still going on at 4:45. I lay her down while I cry her to sleep I take a short nap since she awakes crying 30 min later. I wake up starving, why am i so hungry? Because its 4:00 and i have not had lunch just a pancake for breakfast some fruit and bar. I fed the kids at 12:00 and put my lunch in the microwave but soon after Katie began to really cry and wanted down out of her chair. I forgot to eat. I then microwave a meal of photos and cheese with broccoli from lean cuisine. Its so gross, I push it in my mouth and swallow fast as I stare at Katie who is sitting on the rug staring back at me crying. Rick calls and asks how I am I said if I had a bridge near by I'd jump off it. The boys come running in the kitchen again saying there hungry I pop some pop corn and they start walking down the hall when Jordon pushes Austin and all his popcorn and seeds went flying all over the floor. I yell at the boys to get in there room as I run crying to get a broom to sweep up the mess before Katie eats it and chokes. I look around its now 4:54 the house is a mess my room is still a mess. there is mac a Ronni all over the kitchen floor from lunch, dishes piled up on the counter. Ricks going to be home in an hour the house is a mess and I'm not about to try to make dinner. Clothes all over the counter that need to be hung and put up. I just picked up Katie who is now poopy and its all over her clothes, I'll be right back I have to clean her up. Ok I'm back sitting her with Katie on my lap crying, I feel like I'm going to just go crazy. Rick said put the kids out front so I did and now I get to listen to them fight out side. I realize right now I'm not living my life I'm living there's. there is no more scrapbooking for hours or cleaning a room or a house when I want to. Be right back Austin just throw a car at Jordons head. Ok I'm back. I just feel trapped some times ok allot of the time my days are almost the same over and over. Clean the house do laundry. Wait Austin is talking to me.. mom can we go in the pool? No. Can we play in the slip n slide? No. Mom you never lesson to me!!!! Ok I'm back Anyway its the same old every day. I try to change things up and do different things during the day but then no ones here to do the laundry or the dishes or cook all the meals. On Ricks days off I seem to hand Katie over to him allot he asked me why once and I had to remind him of what I go through all day. Tuesdays and Fridays are the only days that I can actually get things done. I know this is just a phase in my life and I'm sure that's what you are all thinking I know this I know one day I'll be able to eat this out kids crying and fighting. I know one day I'll be able to clean the hose within hours not days. Maby one day I'll look back and miss these days but for right know this sucks bad! Ok so the tylenol is still not working she still is upset, off to give her a bath in hopes that it will calm her down. As far as the messy house goes, looks like it will be another long night of cleaning. As far as dinner goes Rick will just have to pick something up.. I hope tomorrow is a better day.