IBS vent...

I'v have had IBS for as long as I can remember, this has been something that has haunted me for so long. It seems to come and go and when its gone and I now it will return and this fear is so extremely overwhelming. I have been IBS free for a few years now with flare ups every now and then. When I get my bouts of IBS Its horrible its the worst pain ever. I will cramp for hours and hours with I feel like I'm dying cramps. Sometimes these can last from a half hour to three or more hours. I once sat on the toilet for 3 1/2 hours straight just sitting there crying and in the most pain ever. Once when I was pregnant with Jordon I had the worst attack ever! I had just ate Two baloney sandwiches,chips 3 cookies and a huge glass of milk when it hit. Ok I was kinda asking for eat eating so much food. Anyway I had the worst cramping pain ever I thought I was losing Jordon it was so so bad! I even grabbed a hold of the towel rack and pulled so hard that I broke it. I throw up all over my self and just sat there begging god to take the pain away. I went to the hospital but there was nothing they could do. It became so regular that when it started Jordon would know to run and get my pain pills he would just sit beside me and hold me as I would cry out in pain and as Austin would crawl below me with the look of fear on his face.This has at times taken over my life I would always be afraid to go places to go to work to go anywhere. I would never know when they where going to hit. Every time I would go somewhere I first would locate a bathroom just in case. Going for walks was a no no since there would be no bathroom close by.I would get on a IBS support group site one guy wrote and said he was in such horrible pain that he wanted to just end his life. I had to write and give him some kind of hope to let him know he was not alone. Even though I would never want to leave this earth when you are in that much pain hour after hour all you can think of is getting it to stop!! One lady wrote that she bought a motorhome so that if an attack happened she could run to her motor home to use the rest room, what a horrible way to live.Since I have been some what free of all this the past few years it has been such a blessing to be able to go where I want when I want and not to have to worry about where the bathrooms are. I pray all the time that this dreaded IBS wont make its appearance in my life ever again. I had an attack yesterday and it got me thinking what if I was one a photo shoot and it happened? Once I feel the first cramp I have only a few min to run to the bathroom what would I do? When I worked at the donut shop and the child care center I remember having an attack and just getting up and running to my car and driving home since I new most my attacks would last for hours. I've tried medicine after medicine and nothing works. I at one point would take a pain pill or two at the onset of an attack this was not an instant relief but at least I new that within 3omin I'd feel a little better. Then they stopped giving it to me because they said it could make me constipated which could make the problem worse. Hello if it takes the pain away then give it to me. I found my self saving pain pills like it was the last thing on earth I would only take them if I was in dying pain and if it had lasted more than an hour. when ever Ricky or I would go to to dentist and we would be given pain pills I'd stash them for the bad days. People don't talk much about it because excuse my language but you poop your guts out why people are so ashamed to talk about this I wish I new. The number of people who have IBS in America is crazy and I think there's not yet a cure or a real understanding of Ibs because no one talks about it. I pray and hope that someday there is a cure for all those people out there who suffer from this day to day. I pray they find a cure and a true reason as to why this is happening I pray that it won't return if full force, I just can't take that pain again.