Almost 8 years and 9 months ago

I woke up one morning feeling allot of stomach pain, it was so severe it was hard to even walk. My mom made me an apt thinking maybe I had a bladder infection. They took a urine sample. I waited so scared thinking the worst thinking maby I'm pregnant? What if I was? Five min felt like forever as I waited for the doctor. She came in with this sad look upon her face as she sat down and said your pregnant. What, how could I be I had been taking birth control for months little did I now if you thew it up it did not work the pill always made me sick. I sat there and thought all my friends and people I knew around me had more unprotected partners than I can count and none of them got pregnant I'm the first one out of that age group. I sat there and just cried I was in complete shock my worst fear came true I never thought it could happen to me I was only 17. The nurse asked me if I wanted my mom to come in, I told her yes as I braced my self for her reaction. She walked into to see me crying I told her I was pregnant and that I was so afraid she would be upset. She said no I'm not upset we will get through this. What an amazing mother I have to support me no matter what I thought she would be so upset so disappointed but I was wrong she immediately held me in her arms and told me it would all be ok. The nurse came in and told me I had options as to what I wanted to do, keep the baby or get an abortion or adoption. I didn't even have to think for even a second even though I was young this was my baby my responsibility. After we left I went over to were Ricky was living at the time and told him the news he was in complete shock. I left not knowing the future of us. He was still into partying and hanging out all day with his friends drinking and playing video games. I drove home thinking I may have to do this alone. That drive home was the longest ride ever so many thoughts ran though my head, how will I afford a baby how will I buy all the things I need. After a few days of being in complete shock Ricky came over and said. that we will get a place together and raise this baby. He was only 19 and his, our whole world was about to change. We soon told Ricks family who I believe was in a state of shock for some time but soon they became very excepting and excited for the up coming birth. Ricky really stepped up his mother sure raised him right. I was so blessed to have a guy like him most guys would have just left. Rick got a job and us an apt. He worked so hard to get all the things we needed to bring this baby into the world. I began to tell my friends about my pregnancy some acted excited and others I could tell we would never talk to me again . I lost almost all my friends because I was pregnant that was the hardest thing I had ever gone through. Here I was sitting 17 bare foot fat and pregnant with no one no friends to help me through this. The depression was so hard to over come I mean I went from being a care free teen to an instant mother. I had a few friends say well are you going to keep it? like it was a huge shock that I was. Of course I would keep my baby the second I found out I was a mother at that very moment my life was going to change and I was going to be a mom to an innocent little baby that needed his mother and father and no one else to raise him. I knew it would be the hardest thing ever but he was my baby. Weeks and months past as my sweet little baby grew inside me, soon I found out it was a boy! His name would be Jordon. As he grew I could feel this little life inside of me growing and moving and kicking, the excitement of his birth was coming near. Rick and I where so excited and yet so scared. On April 21st I started to have horrible labor pains I thought I was going to die, I would cry with each one. I went to the hospital only to be sent home in early labor. Later that night it got way worse so off we went again soon the time came to push, I remember looking up at Ricky who had such a fear in his eyes a look of helplessness as he stood and watch me go through so much pain after 25 min of pushing at 1:28pm Jordon was born! We all took one look at this beautiful baby boy and cried it was the most amazing time of my life. My baby boy was here! I remember that night in the hospital I was so exhausted and so was Rick after not sleeping the whole night before. Jordon just cried and cried I remember sitting there crying with him thinking ok put him back in my tummy! It was like that for several weeks after. We brought this baby home with no instruction manual no one to help through the sleepless nights no one to tell us what his ear piercing cry meant. It was the best time and worst time of my life. I suffered through bad depression. I went from being able to leave with Rick to go where ever when ever we wanted to staying home day after day alone while Rick was at work. It was so hard but after the first 5 months I finally began to feel better. Jordon started sleeping through the night he cried allot less and I was able to push through my depression and see all there was to be thankful for. I had a wonderful soon to be husband a beautiful baby boy and my family. Jordon was such a joy always had a smile and was always wanting to learn new things. He was a quick learner he walked the day he turned 10 months and has been off and running ever since. All those sleepless nights all those fights with Ricky do to lack of sleep the loss of friends and the loss of my last years as a teen where all worth it. There are no words to describe it, if I new I'd go through all this having Jordon I would do it again in a heart beat. Jordon was the best thing that ever could have happened to me he is and always will be my sweet baby boy. Look 8 years and 9 months later and Jordon is a healthy, fun, sweet amazing boy and I would not change a thing about the decision we made I love him so much. 8 years 9 months later 2 more kids later Rick and I are still going strong. He is an amazing person he was and will always be there for me. I'm so proud to call him my husband. I love my life! Jordon was a blessing a blessing that I will cherish for a lifetime:}